Tuesday, December 31, 2013

A New Start

It's been years since my last post. I have always wanted to update this blog and get back to writing, but I realised over the past 2 years that this blog no longer speaks to me on a personal level. I mean, I don't feel like this is my blog anymore. This is not how I see myself, or how I feel about myself.

So, I have decided to move. I will keep this blog up, and I might even update once in a while. But, for those who are still interested in what I have to say, or write, you can check me out at my new home called Thought Velocity.

You can find it at http://thoughtvelocity.wordpress.com.

Thank you for dropping by and keeping my page count above zero, and Happy New Year!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

A New Book

The past few weeks have opened up a lot of things for me. Mostly, cans of worms. But, also boxes of hope.

Today, I started a new book.

I have been remiss in updating this blog. But, I don’t feel like taking it down. It’s still relevant to me. Maybe, because I feel like this blog helps me stay me. Even if I do censor myself quite a bit.

But, that’s okay. Because, today. I started a new book.

But, for The Goddess Trips, the chapter continues.

Monday, August 1, 2011

A Leap of Faith

Today, I took a leap of faith.

I write a lot of stories in my head, some of which actually make it on paper. Of the ones that are written, only a few make it out to the public. Sometimes, I only let one person read them. Sometimes, they go on stage.

It’s just my personal thing – I don’t like letting stories out until they’re ready, or complete, or sound, or whole. Not until it’s good enough. That’s why most stories don’t make it from my head to the paper – they’re just pieces of stories, little scenes that are dramatic or cute, but don’t really make sense without a prologue or epilogue. They’re just sound-bytes or the wind whistling by. Meaningless.

Well, I’ve taken a leap of faith with two of my scripts. I made t decision to submit them to international short play festivals. I’ve sent off two. And, I’m crossing my fingers that at least one, if not both, will be accepted to one of the festivals. If not all.

I’m optimistic, hopeful, but also realistic. I have competition in the thousands. But, somewhere, someone will be touched by my stories and scripts.

I will keep writing and submitting, and sharing, until that happens more and more frequently.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Make That Change

In a world of imperfections, and in a universe filled with contradictions, I am beginning to realise that the only thing I can change is me.

If I want to change others, if I want to help others, then I have to change myself first. I have to help myself first.

So, that I can become a better person who is more capable of helping, teaching and guiding others to their fullest potential.

I am the change I want to see in the world.

My work begins today.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Clean Hands

I feel compelled to write this.

On Saturday, 9 July 2011, thousands of Malaysians gathered to march in the streets of Kuala Lumpur as a show of their support and determination for free and fair elections.

I was not one of them.

The reports and accounts were horrifying and sobering. Mainstream media were painting the Bersih 2.0 rally as anti-government, and a calculated move to tarnish the country’s reputation in the eyes of the world.

But, then, the mainstream media is controlled by the government. A whole different story emerges when you read alternative media and international news. And, a pretty grim picture emerges when you hear first-person accounts of what went down on 9 July 2011.

Photos and videos have made their way onto Youtube.com, and I hope that many more photos, videos and first-person accounts are shared.

I watched, a silent observer, several Youtube videos from individuals and international news channels of civilians standing before water cannons, fleeing from teargas, and being groped, pulled, punched, kicked and manhandled by police officers.

I saw youths, grown men and women, even grandmothers, marching on the streets. I saw a man resolutely holding a small Malaysian flag in front of him as he faced down a water cannon.

I have lived in fear for my family for many years. Keeping quiet, keeping a low profile, because I was afraid of the repercussions to my parents and my family. I felt it would be selfish of me to take away what little stability they had at the time by pursuing what I perceived to be an individual passion.

So, like other passions, I kept it locked inside. But, actions speak louder than words, don’t they?

And, this article in The Malaysian Insider proved that the pen is mightier than the sword. And, it returned to me some of the pride I felt I had lost when I decided not to join the Bersih 2.0 rally.

Does it matter whether only 5, 50, 500, 5000 or 50,000 showed up? The fact that Malaysians of all races and cultures came together to speak as one and to march together already speaks volumes about the severity of the problem and the necessity to change.

The clampdown started a few days in advance. The roadblocks were distressing, to say the least. And, maybe, it did deter some from participating. But, many did participate. Despite the lockdown on KL City, many thousands participated.

And, each step they took was the sound of one more voice in Malaysia crying out to be heard. Each step they took gave voice to one more Malaysian who was too afraid, for his family, his parents, his children and his life, to walk with them. Each step was a testament, a promise – we’ve come this far, and we can go further.

If anyone wanted to see 1Malaysia in action, then take a good look at Bersih 2.0. All of Malaysia is asking for clean elections, and all the Malaysians marching in that rally stood as one.

Am I safe here at home? While others marched for my right for clean elections? To ensure that my vote is heard, and not discarded or discounted through means other than a fair and honest vote?

The Malaysians who so bravely marched on Saturday have spoken more eloquently than any other politician or representative of the people ever could.

By all accounts, none of them resisted arrest. They knew the risks and they went willingly.

For us who stayed at home, my struggle is this – are we unconsciously, through fear of repercussion, supporting a government we actually wish would serve us better? Are we keeping quiet even though we secretly support the official aim of Bersih 2.0 because of fear or apathy? And, just because we did not march, does that mean that we do not want the same thing?

We wash our hands of things. Does that make us any less accountable for what happens next?

My hands are not clean. I have allowed others to march, in my absence. No, in my predetermined decision to NOT walk or march alongside others.

Clara Chooi was right.

It doesn’t matter how many marched. They marched. And, we heard them. We saw.

It’s time to get those hands dirty. Roll up those sleeves. Get those fingers working.

Redemption is possible for all of us.

And, it starts with getting registered as a voter. You may have feared taking to the streets on 9 July 2011.

Don’t be afraid to go to the polling stations and cast your vote, yourself, in person, at the next General Elections.

We may not have marched with our feet on 9 July 2011. But, we can still march … with our votes.

Don’t let the march be forgotten. Don’t let the light of the struggle go out.

And, one day, all our hands will be clean.

Heart & Soul With The Phil

The same week that I'll be acting in Dancing at Lughnasa, The Philharmonic Society of Selangor (aka The Phil) will be holding their annual concert, this time titled "Heart & Soul".

The choir has been practising for months, and I helped Empress with the choreography for the Michael Jackson medley. They've been putting in extra practise to make sure they deliver a stellar performance, and it's all for charity.

So, if you're feeling down and need a little pick-me-up, get yourself a ticket (or two; bring a friend!), and come on over to The Phil's concert!

And, afterwards, you can come and watch Dancing at Lughnasa! :)

The Phil's Heart & Soul Charity Concert 2011 E-Flyer

Come and watch The Phil's Charity Concert!